I FUCKING HATE THIS.

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Agh. I don’t even…I don’t even know what this is. I thought…I was getting rid of you. Why did this have to happen? That hole- that gaping, bleeding, painful hole- was finally healing. I know you didn’t ask for this and it would be stupid to a degree to which I cannot describe to think so. I thought you were…finally leaving me. God, somebody, please, just make this stop. I don’t- I really, really don’t- want to love you anymore! And every God damn time I try to get you out of my life you come waltzing back in and it hurts, it hurts so fucking badly…

Do you care? Do you even fucking remember me?! I love you, okay? I LOVE you! I would DIE for you! I wish I was the one having the seizure in the hospital bed, listening to the whine of those machines and inhaling that sterile smell of painted white walls and bleached tile floors. Why does this keep fucking happening?! I can’t do this anymore! I just can’t do this! And maybe you’ll be okay and maybe you won’t but either way you’re doing better than I ever will. Oh, please, I love you just let me tell you. Give me…five minutes…one minute, please.

You changed me. You have no fucking clue how angry and hateful I was before I met you. I went home smiling and laughing and optimistic instead of crying and screaming every God damn day because you gave me hope. I carved your fucking name into my skin so I would never forget how you fucking saved me. I would sell my fucking soul to anyone who would buy for one more sunny day under that big tree outside with you. And that will never happen. I love you so much it hurts.

AND I FUCKING HATE IT.




My heart forever broken
Don't know where my life stands
I'd always knew it would end this way
How long can you drink to forget?
As long as it takes to live with
Without your love
My empty heart, I know

That this time, I can't live without
Your love, but we could never last
The thought of you
In someone else's arms
Brings the pain, inside of me again

Cliched to sing of love lost!
But I can't help how my heart feels
I died just when you
Walked out that door
How long can you drink to forget?
As long as it takes to forgive
Your name will be the burden of my heart

CRIME OF PASSION
Take a drink to erase all the memories that I have ever known
CRIME OF PASSION
An empty heart sees through and empty soul
Down, down you fucking go
CRIME OF PASSION
Takes your life to erase all the suffering that I have ever known
CRIME OF PASSION
An empty heart sees through and empty soul
Down, down you fucking go

My heart burns inside

CRIME OF PASSION
Take a drink to erase all the memories that I have ever known
CRIME OF PASSION
An empty heart sees through and empty soul
Down, down you fucking go
CRIME OF PASSION
Takes your life to erase all the suffering that I have ever known
CRIME OF PASSION
An empty heart sees through and empty soul
Down, down you fucking go

This time
I will not crawl
I will not bleed
I will not at all

This time
If I can never be
If I can never fall
This terrorized soul
This life
Why do you make me choose?
When you could have it all
You let it go
Go, you let it go
Why do you make me choose?
When you could have it all
You let it go
Go, you let it go

This time
I will not crawl
I will not bleed
I will not at all


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Jacinta666's avatar
SAY WHAT ABOUT "that gaping, bleeding, painful hole"?!